Craziness

It will never cease to amaze me how I am like I got this, and then God will show me in reality, I couldn't be farther from it! Like patience, so often I am like I totally have patience and trust down and then something will happen and God shows me that I truly haven't mastered either yet. A little over a week ago, I was just starting to heal from a virus that I caught and just catching up in school again. The next thing I know, I got a secondary infection from the virus and this time it was worse than before. It spread pretty rapidly and I desperately needed an antibiotic which I started on this past Tuesday. The only problem is while the antibiotic is killing the respiratory infection, it is damaging my digestive tract, which hasn't healed from the celiac thing yet. All those feelings of frustration and desperation came back in a flash. I really just don't know what to do. I'm very behind in school and in a lot of abdominal pain. All the patience, trust, and dependence  in God I have been learning seemed to just fly out the window. Today, I was simply burdened. I almost didn't go to jubilation due to the fact my abdomen is in so much pain, but I am so glad that I did! By worshiping God through song, He comforted me and gave me His peace that He has everything under control. At the end of practice, our church's minister of music talked to us about a passage from Matthew about prayer. One of the verses he talked about truly stuck out to me... 

Matthew 6:8 "... for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him."

It is such a beautiful promise and reminder! When everything in life seems to be crumbling, God knows what we need and He has a plan to take care of it! He knows about every little thing in our lives! It reminds me of the song..."How deep the Father's love for us. How vast beyond all measure. That He should give His only Son to make a wretch His treasure..." How deep the Father's Love

Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious in about anything, but in prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."